I keep all my promises.

I'm sitting in the silence of my house. I'm trying to really savor my last night here by being meditative and reflective.

It's been a crazy couple of weeks.

Scarily enough, I actually don't want to leave.

As much as I enjoy "independent college life," I just can't bring myself to leave right now. It's harder than I imagined. It's harder than when I first left for school. Distance makes the heart grow fonder I guess. Distance and time.

Growing used to being home has made me less and less eager to return to college. It's hard for me to think that in less than a day, I'll be back at PSU.

I hate goodbyes.

It's all just a little hard to face. I'm like silently hoping that something will keep me here. Or that time will just stand still. But it won't.

And hey, you gotta face life. Right? Pretty soon I'll be caught up in that whirlwind of school and classes and people and I won't even realize it.

I had the best time here. I've done everything I promised myself I would do. Now I have to go!