Stalk, stalk, stalk!

I haven't posted here in a while. In almost a year, actually!

I have a livejournal where I post from time to time, but I've decided that I want to keep a daily journal... pretty much just to keep track of my personal day to day stuff, since I have such a shitty memory. And also partly because nobody wants to listen to me babble anymore. I think once the vacant far-off stares begin, I've gone too far. And I've been getting the vacant far-off stares a lot at home recently. I do talk very much.

So, I got through my second year at Penn State early May. It's been an interesting year to say the least.

School has been rewarding, especially my spring semester. I took eye-opening (and dare I say life altering?) classes and I really did have a great time. Moving into my own place has been as rewarding as it's been frustrating thanks to having the nightmare on elm street as my roommate. No joke.

It's been a little lonely as a result of feeling slightly left out of my friends' inner circle. I'm not big on the whole desperate act though, so I didn't really make that big of an effort to push myself into the circle so to speak. To be fair, I never really made a huge effort to be very close to the kids I know at school. Maybe it was just the feeling that I wasn't going to last that long at Penn State anyway? It just does get irritating sometimes when you get the feeling that you're being disregarded and forgotten by people.

But, I don't like to hold grudges. Forgive and forget!

I'm moving to Austin, Texas now. It's pretty much 97% certain at this point. I don't really have any idea what to expect, but everything I've heard about the city and about the University of Texas has been pretty positive so far. I know it's a big school, bigger than Penn State, but that doesn't really concern me. I was kind of hoping I'd get the chance to attend a small private school, the close-knit community part sounded appealing, but I'm big on the whole fate thing. Everything happens for a reason, ain't that right?

And hey, UT's motto is 'What starts here changes the world' and I've always told myself that I want to change the world, right? I know it's a real flight of fancy, but I guess I'm ambitious like that.

Also, there's a small possibility that my mother and sisters are moving to Austin. I wouldn't mind having them within a 20 mile vicinity (it's always better than 7000 miles). At the very least, I can better discipline my spoiled brat of a little sister.

I'm having some more trouble deciding what I want to do with my future. I know, I know. I'm horrible. Every time I think I've finally decided what I want, I change my mind. I really do wish I could just pick something and stick with it. Unfortunately, my inability to stay focused on one thing isn't exactly conducive to setting goals. I'm working on that particular weakness right now and I've promised myself that by the end of this summer, I will have made a final decision. Seriously.

Every one who hears what I'm interested in doing gives me this look like I'm obviously crazy. So I've just been keeping quiet and doing a lot (a lot) of research on the topic. I really think I can do it and I really think I want to. I keep saying I'm going to "give it some time" but I'm starting to think I want to just go ahead with it. But, I'm going to give it some more time.

Well, this post has certainly dragged on and on. I guess a year's hiatus will do that. I don't really think anyone's reading anyway, so does it matter how much I type? Like cyberspace isn't just waiting to be filled with more useless babble.

So, today was interesting. I'm in Dubai right now with the fam and it's enjoyable. I've been (sort of) working at my dad's little advertising firm so he asked (forced) me to attend this banquet thing in the morning. I think it was at the Chamber of Commerce building. We went over there with his media manager and his PR (or something) guy and there was just a small welcoming speech by the president of this new business service thing called Trade Points. I know nobody's interested but, it basically connects small and large companies from around the world on one online system where you can share information about your company's services and read other company profiles and so on and so forth. It was alright, I guess. There was food and even some cake (and a pretty view of Dubai Creek outside the window) so I was mostly happy.

I then stopped by my mom's office because (does she ever do any work?) I thought I'd entertain her for a little bit. I walked into her office and she was meditating (nope, not work-related). To my previous question, no. I hung out with her for a while then I had to go to a "meeting" at the firm. It's just a block down from my mom's office building so it's pretty convenient. Apparently, the Dubai Courts want another brochure and ad deal and apparently, that's good news.

Afterwards I went home, ate, watched HP4 with my little sister, and that's it. I have driving tomorrow morning and I might just go to the club. Also, I've contacted someone about finding some volunteer opportunities here this summer. Hopefully I can get something!

Anyway, this has been one bitch of a back-from-hiatus megapost. If anyone's still reading, wow... you must be stalking me or something because, seriously?

I'm gonna go try to figure something out for a header I promised Andi I'd make. I hope I can pull off something nice. Andi, don't feel obligated to use any of my crap okay? =P I won't love you less.

Until tomorrow!